Oh, So You're Scared of Change?

December 5, 2020

Who in their right mind changes their major one semester before they graduate? That would be me. And yes, I will still be graduating on time. Over the past 3 and a half years at my university I toiled with my major, going back and forth with my decision to become an educator. Some days I would LOVE my choice and others I would say “this is not for me.” But I stuck with it because I was too scared to change. I had this belief that since I chose to do it, I had to finish it. I guess part of that stemmed from my MANY interests as a kid that I tried and if I didn’t like it, I quit it. I unconsciously started sticking with my decisions which in most cases is a good thing, but in deciding on a career… not so much. Don’t get me wrong now, being an educator is such a fulfilling profession; I come from an educator home. But it’s a profession that you have to LOVE what you do. Think about the AWFUL teachers you had. They didn’t seem like they wanted to be there did they? I absolutely DID NOT want to be that teacher. Those are the worst teachers a student can have. Students remember those teachers and not in a good way.

Now, to address my fear of change. A while ago I made an Instagram post and the caption talked about change and how I used to take pride in being consistent and unchanging. I was reminded of that post when semi reflecting about this post. Unchanging is actually not a good thing. As humans we’re supposed to evolve and grow. If we’re not changing that means we’re stagnant, dead. I have to keep reminding myself that its okay to change. It’s okay for things to not end up the way you thought they would end up. It is OKAY Alyssa. I am happy with my decision to change my major. It feels like a TON of weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Do I know what I want to do after I graduate? Nope. And to be completely honest, I am okay with that. Although I am okay with not knowing what I want to do, part of me does worry because graduation is about 5 QUICK months away and ya girl will need a decent paying job to keep up with my lavish lifestyle. But ultimately, I’m telling you to make that change even if you don’t know what lies on the other side. It will be okay, chile. And if it isn’t…

Come back next week or the week after and I *might* -HEAVY on the might-have a solution.

Be blessed,

Alyssa